Train ride

Sitting on the train now having free wireless Internet, me like. I'm a little bit irritated though. Had prepared some vegetarian BBQ food for tonight and forgot it in the fridge at home. Good job Lina. But perhaps it was meant to happen? You do the analyze. Anyway, heading for Uppsala now and I'm excited!!

woo hoo, it's getting closer!

uppsala last year.

will leave tomorrow afternoon for a long weekend in uppsala and walpurgis night celebrations.

tuesday, you are planned in min.

i snoozed for an hour. meh. i was really tired and still am. it's busy day today. full of school stuff. gonna do an interview for our paper today. yay! will take the tram downtown in an hour. and later on study at the library until the interview appointment or what to call it. anyway. not that interesting to know. deal. i guess my point is that i'm busy.

ok. ciao.

a new week.

so summary of yesterday: last min call to a friend who jumped on a train and spent the day in norrköping with me. cool. salem al fakir live. he's talented and good. espresso house for some chai latte. shopping and then pride-festival stuff. although only a picture-slide show "in hate we trust" by elisabeth ohlson wallin (the same woman who created ecce homo 1998). touching and made me think and analyze like crazy. me like. then. talked with my love for the rest of the evening/night. yeah.

today: i'm just home writing which feels really crappy since it's pretty warm out. meh. but been to a park and met some dogs i might babysit every now and then the coming weeks. they were so freaking cute. gaaah. love animals.

gotta go back to the school stuff now, but first some music!

saturday - pride

i really suck on planning a day so i can attend as many different exhibitions/workshops/discussions and so on as possibly. there were too many different interesting things at the same time so i had to choose. BUT when you are enjoying company, eating good fika and communicating with several cute kids, it's hard to leave and do other stuff. hehe. i've had fika for a couple of hours with some really inspiering women and their kids today. loved it and i totally know where my love and i can go every first saturday of the month to hang out with some amazing people. yes, that's how i think they are. cool. that was my early afternoon.

[after been doing some important shopping (a dress to wear at a wedding where i'm gonna sing and i was starting to get the running out of time stress finding one. it's now all set. phu)].

i got a little bit confused during later afternoon. watched a show/drama but realized later on that it was an improvisation mixed with drama and poetry. hmm. interesting. i was trying to be as much invisible as possible when they needed/wanted some poeple from the audience to enter the stage and i realized a future with acting is nothing for me. so i found out a good point in my life by this experience or aha-feeling. met later on a friend at the train station since she had a 30 min waiting time before her train was leaving for gothenburg. it was awesome seeing her again. i ate some dinner with my cousin who was joining me during the later afternoon/evening and we chatted for a while. we went after dinner to watch another drama which was really touching and made me think alot. they were pretty talanted and impressed me, big time. i thought it would be more people out attending the festival than it was... even though i might not have been where "all" the people were..hehe. anyway. a pretty good day and i'm glad this is happening in town. yeah.

Goin' downtown to the festival!

chai latte. cappuccino. and so on...

i love to fika. to drink coffee drinks. mmm. chai latte is my favorite over them all right now. think we will save money by byuing a cool retro espresso machine instead of going to cafes (even though i love to sit at a cafe). yeah.

friday, i like you. alot.

first study some. then downtown and some shopping with a friend. hopefully fika and later on a beer at a pub. yep. i like you friday.

moi today.

he made me laugh!

it was a tough morning today. you know when the bed feels extra cozy and warm and you're still really tired..mmm. exactly. it was hard. mom and i took the same tram downtown this morning and while we were waiting at the tram stop a guy started talking to us. he was obviously drunk (i did my first internship in denmark with people who were alcoholics or doing drugs or perhaps both and i loved spending time with them) and had no boundries while talking but was amazingly funny and had story after story to tell us. he was totally cracking us up, big time.

we got on the tram and a person was doing a research for the tram company and we filled in forms and of course the guy wanted to do it too. it was a bit hard and he decided to just draw a long line crossing all the boxes you were suppose to mark differently (the questions were asked so you couldn't really do like he did), which cracked me up (for the seventyeleventh time) since he was so proud of being so smart, according to him. but instead of filling in forms he wanted to tell people stories, which he was freaking good at! i turned to mom and said; can you understand now how fun i had in denmark during my internship?!? oh, yes was her respond.

he made me laugh this tough morning. thank you and i hope your hospital visit went good..

yes, please!

i have a great passion in my life and it's about checking apartments on the internet that are for sale..sometimes i decide to "travel" to different cities like uppsala, helsingborg, norrköping and now göteborg...and i loooooove to see how they have renovated them and i'm getting plenty of ideas how i want our coming home to be. mmm. dreaming. my favorite (so far, which is on the market now) is an apartment in göteborg. (where all the pics are from) is the place to check apartments! i'm stuck and i love this one! have already moved in in my thoughts. the best is that my love has the same taste. yeah.

simple and comfy.

it's all simple and comfy in clothes-way today.
gonna study all day at school.

(it's snowing like crap. hate it.)

wednesday, you're so greyish and crazy.

it's crazy weather today. woke up hearing dad talking to mom about that it was snowing outside!!! that's when i dug in under the covers even more. uuugh. snow? but, it's "april weather" as we call it which means - you never know. hate it. anyway, summer will soon be here (have to be optimistic) and my love and i are gonna ride around in the jeep with the top down or ride the bikes around at the beach. mmm. can't wait.

i know, the pic is blurry..can't really fix it, deal.


[bild från]


När jag ändrade min civila status på Facebook, från att ha varit ”single” till att vara ”in relationship”, dök ett flertal kommentarer upp; ” Åh, har du blivit med pojkvän!” eller ”Vad heter den lycklige karln?” Visserligen hade jag aldrig tidigare varit ihop med en tjej och många trodde nog därför att det var en kille jag blivit ihop med…men.. Redan där ser jag vilken inställning eller tankar många människor kan ha. Många reflekterar inte att kärleken kan se ut på många olika sätt och även om jag aldrig hade varit ihop med en tjej, kan det ändras för kärleken styr man inte över, inte jag i alla fall!

Jag är svensk och min (numera!) fru är amerikanska vilket betyder att vi därmed får gå igenom en hel del internationella och underbara fylla-i-blankett-processer i livet. Vi började diskutera relativt tidigt hur vi skulle försöka planera vårt liv. Ja, vi måste planera, eftersom vi är styrda utifrån blanketter, lagar och rättigheter och då dessutom i två olika världsdelar. Framförhållning är något jag har lärt mig att ha de senaste åren. Det var egentligen inte så svårt att ”välja” då det inte finns någon som helst möjlighet för mig att få ett så kallat ”green card” i USA (uppehållstillstånd för resten av ens liv i och med att man är gift med en amerikan, MEN gäller inte då man är tjej och gift med en amerikansk tjej). Faktum är att när min fru ska fylla i blanketter eller liknande i sin hemstat, North Carolina, måste hon kryssa i att hon är singel för vårt äktenskap räknas inte där.

Vi gifte oss i Sverige december 2009 och min fru får därmed rätten till uppehållstillstånd i Sverige eftersom hon är gift med mig som är svensk medborgare. Naturligtvis har vi varit tvungna att fylla i en hel del blanketter i denna process, men vi vet vad beslutet blir – att vi har rätt att få vara tillsammans med varandra (i mer än tre månader i sträck - det är så länge man får stanna som ”turist” i antingen Sverige eller USA), hela livet! Det intressanta har, i all blankettifyllande, varit att se hur alla blanketter är utformade. Faktum är att vi på något sätt lite överraskade inte har bemötts av någon som helst diskriminering i blankettform. Härligt Sverige!

När jag vanligtvis skriver om HBT-relaterade saker (Homo-Bi-Transpersoner) eller händelser på min blogg är det oftast relaterat till politiska beslut eller diskussioner – främst i USA (då de ligger lite efter Sverige, men Obama kämpar på!) men även i Sverige, fokus lägger jag dock mest på det vardagliga livet med mig och min fru. Jag har precis lagt till en kategori kallad ”rainbow stuff” där jag kommer att spara inlägg relaterade till det. Min bild av samhället är att det är många människor som är en aning reserverade för allt som har med HBT-relaterade frågor eller diskussioner att göra. Jag tycker därför det är viktigt att skriva om det i min blogg, och då enkla vardagliga saker för att visa att HBT-personer inte är annorlunda, avlägsna och/eller skrämmande.

Dagens, eller de kommande sju veckors, fokus är att klara av ännu en period utan min fru fysiskt vid min sida. Hon väntar på sitt uppehållstillstånd till Sverige och jag studerar klart min utbildning med examen i sikte i juni! Det blir sedan en sommar i USA för att umgås med den delen av familjen, innan flytt till Sverige bär av stapeln. En flytt som innebär att vi för alltid får vara fysiskt tillsammans - det är livet det och något som vi inte tidigare har kunnat ta för givet.

Under Pride i Norrköping kommer jag troligtvis att besöka debatten om familjefrågor, fika och höra mer om ”Öppen Förskola Regnbågsfamiljer”, kanske se någon show, titta på någon eller några utställningar, dj:a och förhoppningsvis prata med många härliga människor! Det finns så mycket intressant att se och lyssna till så jag får se hur jag knåpar ihop mitt helgsschema, kul ska det bli!

Läs om..
tävlingen (länk)
festivalen (länk)
programmet i .pdf (länk)

Sorry, my international readers for writing this blog post in Swedish. I’m in a contest called “Say it” related to the Pride festival here in Norrköping this coming weekend. I compete about some cool stuff from WordPress (link) – blog/Internet related things.

I’m gonna work on an English version and will update you in the near future!

cravings # ?

i'm gonna focus more on an interest i haven't really been able to do since i've been studying alot. so once i've finished university (hopefully in June this year) i'm gonna give photagraphy a big chance in my life. we have a nikon d40 with 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6G ED, Opteka .35x HD Super Wide Angle Panoramic Macro Fisheye Lens, another lens with a great zoom (which i don't know everything about since it's in the states). but i'm also dreaming of this...

have to study some now..write on our final paper. yeah. but the sun is shining from a blue sky and i just wanna be out taking pics (hehe).

beside each other

when your love is on the other side of the pond and you're scared watching a gotta do what you can do - sit beside each other, but on msn.

today's outfit

have been eating dinner at my sister's place and will now chat some with my love while organizing clothes and stuff for some hours until a movie starts on TV. yep, my sunday afternoon and evening.

miss charming

she's miss charming, big time.
(babysitting my youngest niece)

she's cool.

my love's computer crashed the other day so she got a mac today. cool.

feels like home

i love you.

thanks obama!

The New York Times, today:

Obama Widens Medical Rights for Same-Sex Partners

"President Obama ordered his health secretary to issue new rules aimed at making it easier for gays and lesbians to make medical decisions for their partners." Mr. Obama said; “Every day, all across America, patients are denied the kindness and caring of a loved one at their sides.."..."gay men and lesbians are “uniquely affected” because they are often barred from visiting partners with whom they have spent decades." [read here (link) for the whole article.]

i actually didn't know about the old "rights", and thanking whoever that nothing has ever happend to my love while we've been in the states. but, you go obama!

my old english teacher from high school would probably cry of happiness if he was reading this blog post, perhaps not because of the new rights, but for me reading nytimes...haha. he always wanted the class to do that.

a new design.

yes, it looks a little bit newish here.

french lessons and random thoughts.

listening to edith piaf. wow. wanna learn french, but i suck on the pronunciation part. meh. anyone who can teach me french? have been studying today (not frnech), fixed times for the coming interviews we're gonna have for our final paper (yes, i'm not writing it all by myself anymore, phu. feels really good). wanna change the blog design and having some ideas. hmm. should study, but might actually be more productive tomorrow if i take some time off now from everything that's connected to school. yeah.

i was sitting outside on the porch with only shorts and a t-shirt earlier today. wondering when i'm gonna get a horrible cold as a price. hmm. although, i'm already having one sort of.

i wanna move to our own apartment NOW. went to a friend's apartment today (never been there before), and i loved it. there's hope for an apartment that you rent too. i thought the nice ones are only for sale where you have to pay like a million swedish crowns (= a crap load of money), but no. you just have to dig in to the apartment djungle and have patient (which i don't have). wish us luck.

my love's computer has passed away. i don't think it can do like jesus i'm sad and upset. she will hopefully buy a netbook or something very soon. i mean, we HAVE to able to see each other, otherwise these 7.5 weeks will feel like forever. i want her to buy a mac (the macbook). i'm kind of a mac-nerd whithout having a mac. (is that really ok and normal?). but what is normal and what is ok? oh, well. i want my coming macbook pro to have a mac friend, but we'll see. will probably turn out to be a netbook friend.

ok. gonna work on the new design and will see when it's gonna be a change here. hehe. you never know. edith is dramatic now. gosh.


i've been waiting for this update in a while..

(even though i'm not gonna buy one until the beginning of june)

some books to read.

i'm studying.

i'm half again.

said goodbye to my love yesterday. she had to go back to the states and here i am, in sweden. i really hate the distance. the sun is shining today, i'm listening to music, drinking coffee and will start to study in just a minute (writing on my final paper). feeling so's such an empty feeling. but will see her in 8 weeks again. we can make it.

gotta write on my paper now.


busy life and "chips-heaven"

haven't been updating here that much lately and the reason is pretty simple, my love is here for a week and we're doing stuff every day which is keeping me busy.


we went to the grocery store last night to get some snacks and coke (my american wife has her needs, hee hee). and she found "chips-heaven". i was just pregnant..or something (no, i'm not pregnant irl).

gotta get ready for some new adventures today. a shopping mall and then downtown!

happy easter!

my other half is here and i'm whole.