as you probably can understand through my non-existing updated blog, i'm pretty busy. gaaah. will i survive these coming 8 months? have started my internship (love it), studying for a test and writing papers. it's like full time times at least 2. anyway. i'm not gonna get bored, for sure. but..

well...i've seen these walls now (non-stop) since last wednesday. yep. i've been sick over a week now. gaaaah. but i'm feeling way much better now and i'm fit for fight. the sad thing is that it feels like everyone are busy. hey, i wanna fika or do something..anyone? my goal is to go downtown tomorrow afternoon and hopefully have some fika. wish me luck. (i miss my life in the states big time now)

i'm home today and the rest of the week. hmpf. it SUCKS, big time..but i'm coughing too much. don't think alot of people want to be around me.

mom called me earlier today and told me to take a walk around the block today..like a test to see if i can make tomorrow and start my internship. thought it was a good idea and got dressed (a little bit excited to wear "real" clothes for the first time since-i-don't-know-when). many layers, scarf, hat, gloves, boots and so on...

no road trip for me with my family. i'm a wreck or really sick would be another way to put it (NOT swine flue as far as i know). can't remember last time i was this sick. it sucks and i'm home alone too..i'm lucky and so thankful that my love is calling me every now and then to check on me though. thanks ♥.

couldn't come up with any good subtitle of this post. yeah. 5 inspiration points to me. it's thursday and i am sitting here, listening to music, feeling emotional in many ways (amazingly happy, in love, sad, missing my love and so on and so on and so on). i should, as usual, write on my paper but have NO inspiration. i know i will get it done but i hate that it's all gonna be so stressful (deadline is not until january). it's grey out and snowing every now and then. i'm coughing big time and i hate it. so annyoing. anyway. going on a road trip tomorrow with ma, pa, sis and her kids tomorrow until sat. woo hoo. gonna be fun, interesting and i don't know. haven't done that for a long time. haven't seen two of the three kids since august so it's gonna be wonderful to hug them tomorrow. today is a day when i really miss being in the states with my love. the life i have there...it's so different compare to here and it's a process to get used to everything all over again and to be without my love. it's hard. oh, well. gonna try to find some more articles i need for my paper. yeah.

So I made it back to Sweden (hate to fly). Feels weird in many ways but good at the same time (just wish my love was here and Zola, our cat). Anyway..just a short note here right now. Brb.

..and we started the trip to visit Raleigh. Did some shopping and then, the next day, went to atlantic beach = warm weather and sun, me like. A few pics from the first days for my parents here in NC:

Yes, it feels like it's a mix of everything today. Going to a funeral and then later on we're heading to Charlotte and the airport to pick up my parents! They've been to NYC for some days and are now gonna spend a week here in North Carolina. Woo hoo, I'm excited to show them around here!